Book Rant 1 #reclaimyourheart #yasminmogahed

Self-help was one of the genre of books that I began to read when I was in my teens.

It gave me the boost of confident i needed
and it helped me organize my scattered mind.

However, lets face it self-help books are not always religious. 

Even if it is, the whole lot is based on Christianity. 

I see the wonderful things that it conveys but since some of the things do not align with my believes, it sometimes do make reading hard.

and not to mention, some self-help books focus on materialism. 

They do focus on helping people to make their lives better and get people motivated.

But their aim is to achieve something that is somehow 'material' to me. 

For example,

"How to influence people" 

"How to make friends"

"How to achieve everything you have always wanted"

these are the type of books that are flooding the market. 

Some of them have really good reviews and i believe have helped a lot of people.

But these kind of books lack 'ruh'.

If you add 'ruh' into something, it would definitely be better. 

A book with 'ruh' was something i was looking for.

and Reclaim your Heart by Yasmin Mogahed answered my need. 

Favourite quote from book :

The mirage of water cannot quench. But is so beautiful to the thirsty.

失敗

　私は毎日ほど失敗している。失敗することによって人間が成長するということが分かっているが、やはり失敗は辛い。失敗はどう向かうべきかは非常に大切だと思っているので幾つかの本を読んでた。しかし、失敗をプラスの方向にするのは簡単ではないと感じた。

　 自分失敗したら、時間を取ってその失敗はなぜ起こったのかを深く考える。その原因が分かったら、自分の生活にどう改善すればいいのか分かるようになる。失敗を経験することによって自分はもっといい人間になる。しかし、失敗ばっかり考えて自分を攻めるのは良くない。失敗した原因が分かったら、自分を責めずに気持ちを整理する必要がある。そのことによって、失敗はいい経験になると思う。

　人間は知らないことが多く、失敗するのは当たり前だと考えられる。しかし、人間は自分が失敗したということを認めるのは非常に難しい。なぜかというと、人間は失敗した時、いったんプライドを捨てないといけないからだ。

Youth comes but once in a lifetime.

Youth comes but once in a lifetime.


I'm worried.
I'm afraid.
I'm not sure.

When I'm old, I'm terrified I'll look back at my youthful days and be sad about it.
I'm not completely messed up but there are tons of things that I did. and I'm not proud of it.


theres so many rooms for improvement in my life. But I always start to give up when something gets harder. I start to give up the moment the smell of failure comes seeping. I start to loose hope when I fail.

Isn't life about learning new things through failure ?

How dare you give up on life. Have you forgotten God? A believer should never give up on God. God needs nothing from us. But we need everything from Him.

"I am as My servant thinks of Me. I am with him when he remembers Me. If he mentions 

Me within himself, I mention him within Myself. If he mentions Me in an assembly, I mention 
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him in a better assembly. If he comes near to Me a handspan, I come near to him the distance of a 

cubit. If he comes near to Me the distance of a cubit, I come near to him the distance of two 

outspread arms. If he comes to Me walking, I come to him running." (Sahih Bukhari, Sahih Muslim)

You knew the answers by heart. But why are you wavering?

Hey. Life is short. You never know when you'll die. Maybe you'll never even have the chance to be old and look back at your shitty/superb past.

One of the most ultimate dream in life is to close my eyes when I die and need not to regret about anything I've done.


Just do your best. Not just in what you do. But in life too.

The pursuit of what??

It's hard to be on track when you keep losing sigh on what's really important.  

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Our Lord! Bestow us mercy from yourself, and dispose of our affair for us in the right way!

Ya Tuhan kami. Berilah rahmat kepada kami dari sisiMu dan sempurnakanlah petunjuk yang lurus bagi kami dalam urusan kami.

主よ、あなたの御許から慈悲を与えられ、私たちの事態に正しい道を御受けください。

رَبَّنَا آتِنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحْمَةً وَهَيِّئْ لَنَا مِنْ أَمْرِنَا رَشَ

changes..dear.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

assalamualaikum sume.

dh lame sngt  aku  x post pape. but i feel that if i don't have anything to say, why should i create one? i've decided that i'll just post when i feel there is a need to okay?..

hidup ni, apa gunanya klu x de perubahan? klu kita pilih utk x berubah, kita akan ada kt tempat sama je smpai akhir hayat kita. betul tak? 

makin hari, adakah kita makin j a u h dari Allah atau makin dekat ? tiap2 hari, apa usaha kita utk jd lebih baik? kadang2 kita x fikir sngt pon benda2 camni. kita buat x tahu je. 

"yela, aku ni bukan nya baik sngt"

perubahan dlm hidup kita ni, x yah besar2 pon x pe. sometimes, its the small little things that counts the most. insyaAllah Allah akan pandang setiap apa benda kecik yg kita buat. walaupon kdg2 kita rasa mcm x de org nilai pon benda kecik yg kita buat tu. asalkan kita ikhlas. asalkan niat kita betul,  percaya lah sungguh2 yg Allah tu akan guide and jaga kita selagi kita berusaha utk dekat dgn dia.

cuba fikir, kita dlm state yg skarang ni camne? dengan dosa kita yg bnyk sekalipon, Allah tetap bg kita mcm2 rahmat. kdg2 kita x doa pon kat Allah , tapi kita dapat benda2 yg baik dlm kehidupan ni lebih dr org lain. perasan x ? 

kenapa kita segan sngt nk buat baik kdg2? kenapa bila kita nk buat benda yg x berapa nak baik tu kita boleh ada perasaan bangga dan seronok?  adakah sebab kita takot org yg kenal kita atau rapat dgn kita x nak geng lg dgn kita bila kita berubah? 

klu kita sentiasa nak puaskan hati org lain je, benda tu takkan ada akhirnya. lebih baik cuba fikirkan mcm mana nak puaskan hati Allah. insyaAllah lebih bermakna.

memang la kita ni bukan org2 yg baik2 sngt. tp, klu x mula berubah skarang sket2, bila lg? it's now or never. x semestinya bila kita cuba berubah tu kita akan terus berjaya dan jd mcm org yg kita inginkan. this kind of things takes time. jgn rasa pressured sngt. start slow. walaupon mungkin org lain x nampak perubahan yg ada dlm diri kita, kita tahu diri kita kan? kita kenal diri kita.  make the right choice dear. jgn terlalu takut utk gagal bila kita x berani nk cuba pon.

kita kene tahu bezakan apa yg penting dlm hidup kita. please put priorities in life the way it should be.

it's okay to fail. but it's not when you don't even try. 

kita ni manusia. mustahil klu kita ni  x pernah lupa atau lalai. tp, x perlu terlalu takut untk berubah. klu kita terkembali kepada diri kita yg x elok tu pon, cuba semula utk jd lebih baik.

kita mungkin dibesarkan dgn cara dan nilai yg berbeza dlm hdup ni. tp, kita dh cukup besar dh sekarang utk bentuk dan ubah diri kita menjadi siapa yg kita nak jadi. jgn bg alasan mcm familiy background kita dan cara hidup kita yg dulu tu sebagai alasan adalah x sesuai. move forward. if something is wrong, it is wrong no matter how you put it. deal with it. don't run away. 

finally, just nak ckp yg aku ni bukan nya org2 baik2 sngt pon. ilmu didada ni sngt2 la sikit. tp, jom la kita sama2 berubah utk jd org yg lebih baik dunia akhirat. klu ada slh silap dan klu2 post ni x memberi manfaat, minta maaf ye. 

Something yg dh Lama TERPENDAM...

Bismillahirrahmanirahim,this post is actually utk juniors2 ku di stf. tp, klu ada org lain nak baca pon x pe(ceh2 bajet rmi sngt org nk baca) hurm... sayang sngt korang. ok. weird. haha.
sorry sngt x post benda ni awal2. aku sbnrnya x brapa selesa nk ckp pasal benda ni b4 this. aku tau spm dh dekat. so hopefully, this sharing of experience dpt bantu korng.

sebelum tu, seriously, post ni bukan la utk membanggakn diri aku sendiri atau ada niat2 lain. aku just hope sngt2 yg ramai org terutamanya juniors aku dpt baca n ambil manfaat yg ada. insyaallah.

1stly, pasal result aku.  9A+.
aku pon x sangka Allah nk bg aku result yg bagus macam tu sebenarya. bonda penngetua call aku petang tu (hari before amek result tu). masa tu, aku baru je arrive kat JB. fyi, masa tu i was crossing a very busy road near jusco. sbb bising sngt dgn bunyi kereta, i was actually screaming to the phone. (segan betul. dh la bonda yg call). then, i was told to come to school early tomorrow. i was like, why????
back to the main point, i went to dewan MPC and receive my certificate as one of the pelajar cemerlang johor.

aku tau, rmi yg x sangka, aku jd best student. definitely, nama2 macam Lisya, Yaya, Wardah yg cikgu2 n org lain target. so, aku just nk humbly share sume experience aku.

seperti yg ramai tau, aku bukan la budak yg selalu dpt good marks dlm exam. aku pernah je dpt E ngan C dlm exam. aku, klu suroh buat karangan BM, mmg la jd belacan. dlm buku krgn aku penoh dgn komen2 dr cikgu. so, let me clarify bahawa aku mmg bukan golongan budak2 super bijak. smpai akhir thn f4 pon, add aku still C.

jadi, bila aku fikir balik, result 9A+ tu adalah rahmat dan dugaan yg amatlah besar utk aku.

lepas amek spm, ada a few things yg aku rasa korg boleh pakai.

1st. STUDY. ilmu x dtg bergolek. walaupon kita kat skola SBP (dimana kita disuap oleh guru2 dengan pelbagai ilmu), still, benda study x dpt dielakkan. aku tau, kerja rumah bnyk kan? so, amek peluang utk study smbil buat kerja rumah. masa buat kerjarumah tu, study sekali dgn sekurang-kurangnya, faham apa yg kita tulis tu. jgn copy paste bulat2 kerja kawan(melainkan klu mmg dh x sempat sngt ^^ ).

2nd. jgn TIDO dlm KELAS. aku rasa, aku mmg x layak nk ckp pasal ni. seriously, rugi klu tido. aku tau, bila korng mengantok sngt dlm kelas, korg mmg confirm ah x faham apa cikgu tgh ajar. tp, try jgn tido. cuba korng bygkn, klu korang tido, blh kata confirm jugak la yg korng mmg akan dpt 0% dr kelas hari tu. tp, klu korng tahan diri dan dengar je walau x faham, kurang2 10% boleh dpt.

3rd. banyak3 kn berdoa kat ALLAH. ni sngat la penting. klu korang usaha macam mana pon, klu Allah x nk jadikan,  x kan jadi. always percaya yg Allah tu Maha Pemurah, Maha Penyayang. kita kena sentiasa percaya, klu Allah nak amek atau bagi kejayaan tu kpd kita, adalah sngt mudah.

klu kat stf, aku percaya, bukan la sush sngt nak buat benda2 kt bwh ni.

• lepas solat fardhu, sujud & doa kpd Allah
• try cari masa utk solat duha kat mufaz. sekali sekala, korbankanlah makan nasi lemak kat kantin tu.
• b4 tido, baca la Al-Mulk saeng ngan PA system. jgn buat2 x tau je.

Dugaan2.aku, masa dekat2 spm dulu, suka sngt tido awal. balik je prep, x pon, 9.30mlm tu aku tros tido. mengantok sngt. dlm pukul 3pg ke, bru bgn utk siapkn homework. walaupon cuak bgn pagi2 buta, aku kuatkan hati dgn berdetik, Aku nk tuntut ilmu. Insya Allah, Allah akan bantu aku.

bayangkan masa lepas paper BM (paper 1st spm) aku rasa cam nak nagis gila. lepas kluar dewan, Cikgu Daliza tnya aku. "camne?". (cikgu Daliza sbgi guru kelas n guru BM aku mmg tahu thp kemampuan kau dlm BM) aku terus geleng2 kepala n cakap,"x tau la cikgu, saya rasa macam....". cikgu terus kata, " syuu... x de pape tu. insyaAlllah ok".

about 1 hari b4 paper BI, aku tiba2 kena mcm stress attack. leher n muscle kat bahu aku cam tense gila. masa jwp paper spm tu, aku pakai cool fever kat blakang aku. aku admit, aku cepat tension. emosion aku sngt la x stable. mungkin aku terlupa diri kot. mula2 aku sngka, paper BI adlh paper yg paling aku boleh score. Allah sygkn aku. Allah x nak aku lupa dia. dan sekali lg aku menangis lps jwp paper. aku rasa spnjg spm ni, asyik seisi nangis2 je.

ni aku hamba yg lemah ni nak share lg sket.
cuba korang try Qiam. atau dgn kata lain, solat tahyajud. mungkin nak bgn pagi pukul 3.00 tu untuk buat banyak2 jenis solat tu ssh utk kita sume yg lemah bab2 bgn awal ni. aku pon smpi skarng x mampu. jd, aku cdgkan try bgn awal sket dr biasa. kata kanlah korang bgn pukul 5.30pg ke? aku rasa x de la ssh sngt kan. klu masa tu subuh blom masok, sempat sngt korang nak buat solat tahajud 2 rakaat kan?. dr x buat lansung, buat sikit pon ok la kan.

Finally aku kat sini just nak share. hope sngt sume ni dpt membawa manfaat kat korng. dgn menulis ni, aku juga hope dpt mengingatkan diri aku sendiri. manusia kn mudah lupa. lg2 yg diberi nikmat. apa yg aku post ni adlh dari some of the not so vivid memory of what i have. korang amek yg keroh buang yg jernih ye. terima ksh kat guru, kwn2 n family yg bnyk support. terima kasih ya Allah sbb bagi sume rahmat ni.... (^^)

P/s: calon2 spm 2011, gud luck. stfians, we can do it. (^0^) insyaAllah....

sem 2

finally, dh nk masok sem 2 of my live as an RPKJ student. haish....

x sangka sbnrnya yg aku dh habiskn sem 1. 

 

time do flies. now, we are gonna have to gear up fr more challenge. can u imagine? learning chemistry　(化学), physics (物理） and maths (数学） in japanese?

but, thousands of Malaysian students b4 me took the same path and succeeded. come on. X kan la kau ni B*D*H (u know the word) sngt kot zarief? hehs. seriously.

masa 期末試験　（exam final sem) hr tu, i wasn't really sure what i truly had in mind. i haven't changed much i guess. still in the state of 'kelaraan' . aku x tau la. i thought i was armed to the teeth utk amek exam ni. but, i was wrong. mmg apa yg kuar exam tu almost sume dh blajar. tp, aku x revise thoroughly bnyk benda. sbb tu la kot aku fail to remember a lot of stuff. bygkan, masa jwb paper maths hr tu, aku ada EXTRA 1 jam kot dr 2jam 30 min tu. bukan extra sbb aku dh hbs jwb, tp extra sbb aku dh x tau nk jwb mcm mana utk lbh kurang 8 soalan. aku dh mula あきらめました（give up) masa tu. apa la nak jd dgn result aku nnt ae? harap sngt2 x fail. 

aku mmg bukan budak all star cam org lain. till now, nak dpt manten (full marks) tu still bkn benda yg sng utk aku. setengah org, muka lepak je. nak kata study, cam x nmpk plak. tp, time テスト (test), manten gak. untung la~ . rezeki diorg la kot. hurm...

we just received a pile of japanese textbooks from 科学　（science) nye sensei. i was like (*O*). even the book cover was hard enough fr me to fully comprehend. it just occurred to me that it was a bad sign. masa 全体会　(perjumpaan) hr tu, sensei nye perckpn cam ssh nk fhm. cuak aku bila fikir nk blaja ngan diorg 科学.  basic conversation pon x brapa nk lepas. apatah lg 科学？

ni buku2 nya...

aku just sngt la percaya yg Allah tu Maha pemurah, Maha penyayang dan Maha adil. if we are not able to achieve what we want, it probably means that what we want is not something that would do us any good or we haven't worked hard enough fr it. Insya Allah, klu kita dh usaha, Allah akn makbulkan.   - Allah Maha mengetahui. (^_^) 

みんな，いっしょに　がんばろう！！！

finally, live well or live hell, we choose. Insya Allah.